Here at the Majlis we voice our thoughts; worries and concerns .. We resonate our inner self and we chill out as well.. This Majlis is our space to relax even if it seems impossible at times ..
One last thing; you don't need to knock on my doors; IYM does not have closed doors !
Welcome to the Majlis :)

San Francisco

>> Monday, July 27, 2009

For some reason hidden deep inside those recesses in my mind.. I just love the beautiful city of San Francisco.. I can still smell the fresh full-of-life breeze by the Pacific Ocean.. For some reason, I can 'define' love clearly in SF.. every corner of that city speaks of love.. every moment is full of love even if it's only a solo-love; that is if you don't have a lover !

I just want to be there at this very minute.. my solo lover.. my SF.. " I get carried away when I look at you "

Good night..



When I Need You..

>> Tuesday, July 21, 2009

When I need you.. I just close my eyes and I'm with you
I know that I so want to give you.. it's only a heartbeat away
When I need love.. I hold out my hands and I touch love.. I never knew there was so much love keeping me warm night and day
Miles and miles of empty space in between us
The telephone can't take the place of your smile
But you know I wont be travellin forever
It's cold out, so hold out, and do like I do
When I need you.. I just close my eyes and I'm with you
And all that I so wanna give you babe
It's only a heartbeat away
It's not easy when the road is your driver
Honey that's a heavey load that we bear
But you know I won't be travelling a lifetime
It's cold out, so hold out, and do like I do
Oh, I need you.. I need you
When I need love.. I hold out my hand and I touch love
I never knew there was so much love
Keeping me warm night and day
When I need you.. I just close my eyes and you're right here by my side
keeping me warm night and day
I just hold out my hands.. and I'm with you my darlin
Yes I'm with you my darlin
All I wanna give you, it's only a heartbeat away
Oh I need you darling

La la la la la la laa la..



Living on the Equator !

>> Saturday, July 18, 2009

I finally realized l live on the Equator.. not being polarized by the Middle-Eastern culture; and not being polarized by the Western culture as well !
How does it feel like living on the Equator ?! Am I lonely there or there are other folks like me but on the other side of our curvy Earth walking the same path as mine ? Can we meet someday somewhere along the Equator line ?!
Before I proceed with what I have to say.. let me make it clear that I'm extremely happy and content with my status of not being polarized.. it feels so good.. I am a free person.. I am a free spirit.. I am free..
I was in Dubai for 10 days or so; changed my plans from having an energetic relaxing vacation at Waipio Valley in Hawaii to that of bonding souls with my family in UAE. My week there was full of surprises I have to say. Starting from getting upgraded to first class on Emirates flight from Toronto to Dubai to the car accident that was about to kill me along with my family on Emirates Road in Dubai ! Yes it was a roller-coaster week but it managed to energize me in a different fashion than that of my favorite Waipio Valley !
My family planned to set me up for marriage.. I surprisingly agreed to go with the idea and give it a shot despite my complete belief in and attachment to the idea of love marriage. I questioned my values for a fraction of a second, which I promised myself afterwards I would never do again, and then I had to live the consequences of leaving my Equator line..
The candidate was 40; divorced with no kids; holds a University degree with a prestigious military rank.. hmmm, why not ? I thought to myself. Then the uni-gender delegate of women arrived to our place.. " dress up this way and talk this way " my sisters said to me with a smile on their face. I adhered to their instructions but only for a short period of time; I'm IYM after all and I can't wear a different skin but mine! They clearly wanted to check on how 'obedient' and 'giving' and 'compromising' I would be to his living circumstances without much of consideration to mine. I started talking about my independent life-style and how I'm enjoying my time in North America. One of them was staring at my body geography and the details of my curves, of course you know for what reason, and I was about to burst in laughter when I spotted her gaze thinking to myself " What a lesbian she is " !!. While still socializing with his sister, he called her to check on things, she goes " Not now, we'll talk later ".. I sensed an escalating anxiety level on the other end of the phone. We served dinner, and while doing so I let my sister take over the conversation.. I started getting bored for some reason and I thought to myself I better be mute and enjoy our home cooking that I missed a lot.. I was on a different planet and the uni-gender delegate sensed this.. " Who cares ? I'm enjoying my 'harees and thareed' " I thought to myself. " It was nice meeting all of you " we lied to each other while saying goodbye.
" He's 40 and divorced, he better chose for himself instead of sending me a lesbian to stare at my geography " I said to my sister. " This is how people get married here " she said to me. I go " You know what ? If anything I felt like an escape goat being chosen for Eid celebrations, this is not going to happen again.. you guys are not setting me up in this fashion again". She repeated " But this is how people get married here in UAE " I go " Well, I think you have an answer then to the high divorce rate in the country ". To tell you the truth, although it didn't work out because there was too much of IYM there, it made me insist on not changing my values and belief system just for the sake of being culturally 'normal'.
After I came back to Canada, I investigated more about him.. the guy has kids, although he denied it initially, and the guy is retired as well.. simply he was full of lies ! That's the blessing of our arranged marriages.. it deceives you in a 'professional' way that is culturally acceptable.. at the end you add 'Misses.' as a prefix to your name and it doesn't really matter if the suffix is ' miserable ever after' !
Back to my Equator.. where it's challenging and raining all year around.. where you are free and content at the same time..
I say NO to polarization.. love my line.. love my path..
Good night all ..


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